Trying to explain how my boyfriend makes me so ridiculously happy. A happiness my body isn’t used to so it’s trying to balance things out but instead it’s freaking the fuck out causing me to be emotionally all over the place. It’s hard to explain that someone makes you the happiest you’ve ever been yet you’re still depressed. He is one of the most understanding people I’ve ever met and he puts up with all my emotional ups and downs like an absolute saint. I honestly don’t know how he does it. He explains it by just being that in love with me but just because he puts up with it doesn’t mean he should have to and it doesn’t mean I should go on feeling this way so I’m taking steps to better my mental and emotional health. Getting back into therapy and probably back on medication if need be. Admitting you’re depressed is not a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of strength. At least that’s what I think. Realizing you don’tneedto live your life in the dark and that being happy is healthy is the best realization you can make. I deserve happiness. We all do.