Can't Be Happy Without Feeling Sad
Trying to explain how my boyfriend makes me so ridiculously happy. A happiness my body isn’t used to so it’s trying to balance things out but instead it’s freaking the fuck out causing me to be emotionally all over the place. It’s hard to explain that someone makes you the happiest you’ve ever been yet you’re still depressed. He is one of the most understanding...
Just need to get it out...
so I had a perfectly wonderful weekend (besides waking up having a complete anxiety attack after having a bad dream about my boyfriend cheating on me, pushing me to the ground, then dying… it was crazy & seemed SUPER real although the 1st 2 things I know he would never do) but then it was Sunday afternoon & I realized he needed to sleep before work & I asked if he wanted me to...
I have decided...
that when I get married I am going to have a slightly Doctor Who inspired wedding mixing all of the new series. I want tardis blue as one of my wedding colors, I want him to wear a schnazzy bow tie because bow ties are cool, I want part of my vows or possibly a speech to be Amy’s quote about Rory, “You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them...
Hey! I get to see my baby in two days!!
Me half the time: I just want to cuddle up with you and watch cute movies and look into your eyes and kiss you lots and then fall asleep in your arms.
Me half of the time: I just want to rip off your clothes and get pushed against the wall with my arms pinned up and make out and push you onto your bed and we can fuck the shit out of each other, ok.